Thursday, June 19, 2014

Questions...

Why am I living? It is one question I ask myself everyday but I never get an answer, and I am afraid there will be no life left by the time I get the answer. So, what do I do in the mean time. Should I just be happy that I have no where to go or worry that I am just wandering aimlessly and it is gonna end one day without any happy memory... Should I put the fake happy face and live an ideal life which everyone wants me to do, be a good daughter, good friend, good person... or just be myself, give a little credit to God for putting so much effort in making me who I am. How do I find answers to my questions? How do I know anything is true or not? what if one day I get up and realize that all this was for nothing, because its all just a game, or a play, and it will restart tomorrow again and there will be same people, the very same silly excuses for not being better person, very same negative energies, very same creatures who pretend to be human... I don't mind good things starting over, but shouldn't there be an end for dark? why is it always present, hiding and lurking in corners to engulf us the moment we let go the shield of light. May be I should just keep trying to find the answers, because all will be lost if we stop trying.