Writing after a long time... It has been such a busy time.Although I would never say it was tough, but it was not that much fun without putting my thoughts in words. It has become more like a habit to calm myself by writing, and when I don't write, it is like having a beehive for a head. :)
I have been thinking a lot about feelings lately. Whenever I sit down, I have different types of feelings in my heart, but I am not able to define them really. I can't say if it happens to everyone, as I never asked anyone, actually I never knew how to ask this... I feel angry, but I am happy also at the same time. I feel sad, but I am very hopeful at the same moment. I feel I am lonely, but then a voice in my head says I am loved by so many people. I feel like running away, but my heart tells me I can't leave the people I love so much. And I just sit there... like watching from a distance, wondering at this play of emotions, waiting for a certainty which never comes.
I guess it is better this way, I don't know if I could live with the feeling of not having options. Adventure & surprizes are very important, or life will become boring if I knew what is coming next. Where is fun in knowing everything... :) I am hoping for a new adventure every moment, every day... Not that I get many, but still a girl can dream !!!
I have been thinking a lot about feelings lately. Whenever I sit down, I have different types of feelings in my heart, but I am not able to define them really. I can't say if it happens to everyone, as I never asked anyone, actually I never knew how to ask this... I feel angry, but I am happy also at the same time. I feel sad, but I am very hopeful at the same moment. I feel I am lonely, but then a voice in my head says I am loved by so many people. I feel like running away, but my heart tells me I can't leave the people I love so much. And I just sit there... like watching from a distance, wondering at this play of emotions, waiting for a certainty which never comes.
I guess it is better this way, I don't know if I could live with the feeling of not having options. Adventure & surprizes are very important, or life will become boring if I knew what is coming next. Where is fun in knowing everything... :) I am hoping for a new adventure every moment, every day... Not that I get many, but still a girl can dream !!!
